On facebook...

i wish i could like the likes!
like, i like that you like that!
but then it could get out of hand;
like: i like that you liked that i like i liked.
and thats going too far.

quoting myself...from facebook, about love:

i try to look at each person like they are love. they are worth loving and they each love back.
the more we offer love and receive love, as the intent in every encounter, even walking by random people on the street, the more love we will create and the more that vibrational energy will rise.
love is the opposite of war, i just know it!

most ppl believe in numbers. im not a huge fan (lol) BUT there is something to be said about numbers, (yes, there are lots of things to be said about numbers!) BUT if the numbers do "speak" then i believe that the more and more people that begin to jump on this evolutional "bandwagon" then the more it will affect and shift the state of the planet (the universe!)

that has got to be better than leaving things as they are, right?

Bella, having her lunch. She needs her energy for being the bird of peace & love.

“You should be a model”

Should I be? Why? So someone can cake me in makeup, drape me in fancy (or ridiculous!) clothes, and take pictures of me and use photofinishing until I look nothing like myself so you can look at them and see some kind of fake beauty that pleases you and other idiots, while causing unrealistic ideals of beauty for other women who look nothing like the picture of me that I also look nothing like?? Why SHOULD I do that? Would it make YOU happy? Do you think that’s all I should be? That, for being small, I somehow owe that to people?
I have a small body, long hair and eyelashes so that’s what i SHOULD do?
To please who? For what gain? Its all bullshit.
Don’t tell me what I should do.

Celestine Prophecies... (© James Redfield)

A new spiritual awakening is occurring in human culture, an awakening brought about by a critical mass of individuals who experience their lives as a spiritual unfolding, a journey in which we are led forward by mysterious coincidences.

This awakening represents the creation of a new, more complete worldview, which replaces a five-hundred-year-old preoccupation with secular survival and comfort. While this technological preoccupation was an important step, our awakening to life's coincidences is opening us up to the real purpose of human life on this planet, and the real nature of our universe.

We now experience that we live not in a material universe, but in a universe of dynamic energy. Everything extant is a field of sacred energy that we can sense and intuit. Moreover, we humans can project our energy by focusing our attention in the desired direction...where attention goes, energy flows...influencing other energy systems and increasing the pace of coincidences in our lives.

Too often humans cut themselves off from the greater source of this energy and so feel weak and insecure. To gain energy we tend to manipulate or force others to give us attention and thus energy. When we successfully dominate others in this way, we feel more powerful, but they are left weakened and often fight back. Competition for scarce, human energy is the cause of all conflict between people.

Insecurity and violence ends when we experience an inner connection with divine energy within, a connection described by mystics of all traditions. A sense of lightness--buoyancy--along with the constant sensation of love are measures of this connection. If these measures are present, the connection is real. If not, it is only pretended.

The more we stay connected, the more we are acutely aware of those times when we lose connection, usually when we are under stress. In these times, we can see our own particular way of stealing energy from others. Once our manipulations are brought to personal awareness, our connection becomes more constant and we can discover our own growth path in life, and our spiritual mission--the personal way we can contribute to the world.

Knowing our personal mission further enhances the flow of mysterious coincidences as we are guided toward our destinies. First we have a question; then dreams, daydreams, and intuitions lead us towards the answers, which usually are synchronistically provided by the wisdom of another human being.

We can increase the frequency of guiding coincidences by uplifting every person that comes into our lives. Care must be taken not to lose our inner connection in romantic relationships. Uplifting others is especially effective in groups where each member can feel energy of all the others. With children it is extremely important for their early security and growth. By seeing the beauty in every face, we lift others into their wisest self, and increase the chances of hearing a synchronistic message.

As we all evolve toward the best completion of our spiritual missions, the technological means of survival will be fully automated as humans focus instead on synchronistic growth. Such growth will move humans into higher energy states, ultimately transforming our bodies into spiritual form and uniting this dimension of existence with the after-life dimension, ending the cycle of birth and death.

The Tenth Insight is the realization that throughout history human beings have been unconsciously struggling to implement this lived spirituality on Earth. Each of us comes here on assignment, and as we pull this understanding into consciousness, we can remember a fuller birth vision of what we wanted to accomplish with our lives. Further we can remember a common world vision of how we will all work together to create a new spiritual culture. We know that our challenge is to hold this vision with intention and prayer everyday.

The Eleventh Insight is the precise method through which we hold the vision. For centuries, religious scriptures, poems, and philosophies have pointed to a latent power of mind within all of us that mysteriously helps to affect what occurs in the future. It has been called faith power, positive thinking, and the power of prayer. We are now taking this power seriously enough to bring a fuller knowledge of it into public awareness. We are finding that this prayer power is a field of intention, which moves out from us and can be extended and strengthened, especially when we connect with others in a common vision. This is the power through which we hold the vision of a spiritual world and build the energy in ourselves and in others to make this vision a reality.

Ntv cuts benefit concert airtime short online AND on tv?

What’s the deal?

A friend of mine posted the link on facebook, to watch the live streaming, so I, a person who doesn’t want to have cable in my house, clicked on it to get to experience the show; I wanted to share in that experience, support in that energy sharing-money giving spirit that was pumping in that building!  But then, probably an hour or more before it was over, the show was stopped and regular broadcasting was resumed (a scene of point blank shooting on NCIS. guh.) 

Why not keep the concert going and not show the regular broadcasting, just this ONE time?

There’ve always been tv show interruptions from “special broadcasting”. Like, for example: anything in politics, or like a football game, or some kind of shooting or murder NEWSBREAK (MAKE YOU LOOK AT DEATH AND BE SCARED! (I’sa scared kitty) (and while im talking about it: why not have some “goodnews” friggin’ breaks!), OH and when some famous persons dies (the whole darn funeral is aired) (MAKE YOU LOOK AT DEATH! LOOK HOW IT STOPS THE WORLD! FFREAK OUT! YOUA RE GOING TO DIE!! (ok, maybe that’s a bit dramatic, but not entirely wrong) (if this ‘funeral showing’ thing is so damn ‘acceptable’ and slightly MANDANTORY, then I want live streaming of everyone’s death who dies in any community or city in Canada! It’s only fair. Everyone is important. (Id love to have a file of when my nan died to play on my ipod now. (ok totally NOT REALLY!))

I’m sure there are people who feel they neeeeeeed to have NCIS playing RIGHT at that moment. Some of these people might even be sitting there making fun of the concert or at least sitting there wishing theyd all stop singin’ and START THE DARN SHOW!!! (probably getting increasingly angry at such a show taking up so much time…. and yes, I admit, there may have been, ok there HAVE been times, when some utterly annoying tv programming duing my tv days that hogged the air time from a sitcom I was watching, driving me mad and makin’ me  roll the crap out of my eyes: BE OVER! I DON’T CARE ABOUT THE ELECTIONS! (I was a teen, of course I didn’t care about the elections! And “Friends” was MUCH more interesting at the time!)
But still. That didn’t stop ‘em then.)

Who decided that this concert wasn’t worth the hogging of air time? To whoever that is, I say: screw you! Show the people of Newfoundland the rest of the show! Not fair.

 Like a friend on facebook said: “longer the broadcast with better bands equals more phone calls and donations.” And she also admits to wanting to share in that experience with the people who are getting to sit there and enjoy it live (like a lot of people would want!) I wonder how many people were sitting there? (There looked to be a great turn out! But, unfortunately, all of us couldn’t make it, and there’s no way the rest of Newfoundland was fitting in that building anyhow!)

Why stop the show? Why not keep that energy going through the airwaves? Why cut it off? 
 I would like to know the main reasons the concert was stopped.
Was it because of the station or the advertisers or, I dunno, cooperate sponsors losing money somehow? Or maybe Mile One Center, or the musicians, had something to do with it?
I don’t know.
Either way. It’s a benefit concert for Newfoundland playing on a Newfoundland station (and website), why stop it? Can’t you “donate” that air time and play time? Surely it couldn’t bankrupt anyone. (especially, to keep it playing online!)

That’s my gripe for the night.

(so i have found out that NTV wasnt allowed to air the full show and that some of the bigger bands didnt want to be on air! sorry ntv, i dont blame you! ;)  

wholeheartedly believes...

 ...the people who's role it is to stick stickers on merchandise hate their jobs so much that they stick them in the WORST possible places... just to piss off the people who buy the crap.

i dont care what you think!!!

so what do you think about that?
wait...shit!! damit!!
back to square one.

hmm.. have you ever...

...spent several minutes trying to open something that has already been opened?

my awesome orange cushions are (finally) complete!

finally have my cushions done! (been wanting to have these done for about 5 yrs now! lol) 
the final stuffing and thread went in last night! 
they arent the most comfy things in the world, BUT i enjoy looking at them! 
and they work well for meditation sitting!
(oh and one of these lil darlings is stuffed with a snuggy! (ya know, those annoying blankets with the arms??) hehe

the worst way to have eggs?

scrambled... with runny yokes.


im really going to miss these years...

when my baby gets old enough to run in the room without tripping up and falling...funny times. 

some nifty new things i want in my house:

the coooooolest fish tank ever!

the BEST sink ever!!

and a toilet thats now on my "things i want to acquire before i die" list!!

this is the website i stumbled across:


I once received 4 months of free bus passes in the mail at an apartment I lived in for four months...

...under someone else's name! 

(hated to move out... because of the steady stream of free passes!)

This happened when I first started university, barely had enough money for everything… and this little gift from a past soul saved me a couple hundred dollars that semester.
I was grateful for opening it and loved seeing those envelopes appear at the end of each month… a gift to me! :) 
I was grateful but also felt a little guilty about opening someone else’s mail, but I feared they would’ve gotten thrown out by someone anyhow or gotten sent back to metrobus (and then id stop receiving them-that would just be silly!)
and I know, I worried a little that maybe someone paid for those, and wondered if I had sent them back, would they have saved that money?! maybe someone still owes money for them!?
But, what if that person won them? Or did pay for them and couldn’t get a refund, and had to leave the province, so didn’t mind if someone else used them?
See. Makes more sense to use ‘em! I really needed them at the time and was sooo grateful for not having to dish out the bus money myself!
(I have thought of many possibilities about the come-abouts of those passes over the years~!)

(ps what the heck is ~ used for? I could google it right now, but im in the middle of writing and thought id be fun to fill you in on the random thought that came from a random slip of the finger.)

~anyhow~ (are they for decoration??)

I didn’t fully realize that I could guilt-free, outwardly appreciate these “free” passes as a gift from the universe, until right now, tonight (about 6 or 7 yrs later) (for the most part, I was afraid to talk about it b/c: what if I was arrested for opening someone else’s mail!). tonight, I read this status by a friend on facebook, and I really felt the actual joy and gratitude again for those bus passes! (thanks EB!! ;)

"Ok, so, you know how you're not supposed to open other people's mail? 'Cause it's, um, illegal? Well, the last time I went to drop off some mail that I marked "return to sender" (because it was addressed to previous dwellers of my house) the post office worker told me that when it says "addressed admail" in the right hand top corner, they throw it out. This is for two reasons: a) it's essentially junk mail and a waste of resources to re-route it back to the company and b) there is literally no address on admail envelopes to return it to. SO, I got this new piece of admail, decided to be really bad and open it instead of throwing it out, and inside was a coupon for a free package of the new Maple Leaf centre cut bacon in a resealable package and a hilarious letter from this website below! Thanks, to whoever used to live here and loved bacon, like me. It's a Thanksgiving gift. :D"

Now, I’m not entirely sure if the letter I opened had “admail” written on the right corner (saying this at my own risk I KNOW!), but this friend has taken any speck of guilt that was left about those letters addressed to someone else ... deep inside I knew it wasn’t completely bad of me to open them, but still, I held a bit of unease!

So yeah! I think we can open other ppls “admail”, as long as we do it with respect and decency. Just have to use discrepancy as to what we open and what we may end up reading.
If we have a bad feeling about a piece of mail, I wouldn’t suggest opening it, maybe our psyches are warning us of info we don’t need to know and will change the course of our lives forever! (yeah. There’s totally a movie in there somewhere!)

And if its something we really think a person would really like to have received, then maybe we can help get it to that person!

One time, I received a christmas card address to a former resident (who I didn’t know), with a christmas picture of kids taken at walmart. I knew this was an import gift to someone, so I wrote ‘return to sender” on it and then I poked it in my drawer, to be sent, for about 6 months, and then some mice chewed it up and I never did get to send it. I felt a little bad, because I felt so much love in my effort to return that letter with the lil note I included, so to see it go to waste after so long, really made me wish I had just sent the damn thing-in case the letter did make it past the trash can of the post office.

I hope the love didn’t get lost in the mail, like the letter did in the kitchen drawer.

cast iron couch we wana make!

We are going to [attempt to] make this cast iron couch!
we just need to figure out how to cut it... 
and then it's on to making the cushion (already have the perfect material!) and picking out the best paint at the best deal- and then paint it, wait for it to dry and lug it in the house!
cant wait to sit on it! ;) 

Cast Iron Bathtub Couch


Orange is my fave color. halloween has kind of taken claim to the   color and anytime i wear orange with black the rest of the year, i  know i get starred at and remind ppl of halloween.                  
well finally!! its halloween time again kids! i get to wear my fave color and look festive too! sweet.         

we've decided to try 
and wear something   
black and orange     
everyday for the     
month of october!    
heres our day 1!      

What a mess…

This was the result of mixing up a breakfast shake…


I didn’t shake it in a bottle and our blender is broken, so I used a whisk, and not in the boring “regular” one-handed way. noooOOOoooo. I had to put it between my palms and swish it back and forth real fast, like a friggin' human blender.
I was cool... for about 30 seconds.
then the whisk twisted out of my foolish grip and the puny plastic cup went flying (at least if it had been glass, it may have been heavy enough to not fly across the stove). 
oh well. had fun cleaning it up. not.